2013 A Year of Defeat or Victory?

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                                     2013 A Year of Defeat or Victory?
       

     As 2012 ended I was looking forward to another new year much like I had experienced many times in my life.  However, I would soon come to realize that this year would be nothing like I had ever faced before.   As the New Year began I was deeply involved in the authorship of my autobiography “Transgender Christians in Chains” and already I had dug up some repressed memories of my adolescent years.  For the most part they were mildly painful but I had not yet written about the struggles and confusions of my adult life.  At the time I had no idea the tremendous pain that dredging up these memories would cause.  For over twenty years I had successfully buried and forgotten the immense pain caused by the rejection of both friends and the church.  However, here I was intentionally trying to remember them and to write about them.

      As the year drug on and as the repressed memories came flooding back I began to plummet into a depression like I had never experienced before.  It left me totally incapacitated and at many times suicidal.  As my negative attitude and temper tantrums exploded, I withdrew from family, friends and coworkers.  Had it not been for the loyalty of my friends and family and of course my church, Satan would have surely completed the destruction he had planned for me decades before.  The faithful prayers and encouragement from the editor of my book was especially grateful and gave me the hope to make another day.  Thank you Chris, I love you.

      God is always faithful and as He often does God had to take me through the wilderness in order to show me the mountaintop. By reliving all the struggles, confusions and rejections that I encountered before and during my transition, God awakened a dormant call on my life from years before.  In 1968 I was called to full time Christian service and in 1984 I knew that my calling was to help and support the transgender community.  I had seen so many transsexuals rejected by the church and forced to make the choice between church acceptance and what seemed to be the only solution to their emotional and physical confusion.  Had it not been for my deep rooted spiritual and scriptural foundation, I too, would have walked away from God.  I knew I was called to be their voice and to encourage and share with them the loving God that sent His Son to die for even them.   However, I walked away from my calling and vanished into the normalcy of social culture.    

      By the time of the release of my autobiography in November God had planted my feet on firmer ground and daily I was growing in faith and strength.  I had renewed compassion for the transgender and the LGBT community and I had a new focus on what God wanted me to do. My bones began to burn with a passionate fire to illustrate to the church that not everyone in the LGBT community has bowed down to Baal and there are those who still look toward Jesus for their redemption and their salvation.  Now, as 2013 comes to an end, I receive daily guidance, wisdom and strength from the Father and with a yielding heart I can look forward to a blessed and fruitful 2014. 

       Now back to the title of this blog.  Has 2013 been a year of defeat AND victory?  I think not!  I have learned that even in the valley of depression God can turn what Satan meant for bad as a tool to teach and prepare a person for a much greater good that comes only by waiting and trusting in Him.

 So about 2013?      A Year of Victory!  

 And what about 2014?         A Year that God will use me to do HIS will?

  Bobbie Lang

  Dec. 31, 2014       

 

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For more information about Bobbie Lang you can get my autobiography “Transgendered Christians In Chains” on Amazon.com.  It is my heart and soul for my writings to help mend painful lives and heal painful experiences by sharing the story of my victories and the lessons learned from defeat.   It was never or will ever be my intention to push my autobiography for the purpose of monetary gain